These days I feel lonely…

06Dec07

These days I feel lonely.And why do I want to say that on my blog ? I like to express myself by writing, it’s a relief or I don’t know how to call it. I guess I just like to express myself. Just saying that helps me a lot actually.

I feel so lonely. I feel I have no one to really talk to. You know, that special one with whom you can share anything which is on your heart, difficulties or joy. Maybe only the feel to be loved by someone you also love tremendously… it is so amazing. I need that feeling, I’m falling apart without that feeling…

And why do I complain now ? I have everything, and I already have a very special friend who is always there for me, who loves me so much, He died for me once (John 3:16), He saved me from death about 2,000 years ago. It is not so far from today. He still listen to me now, He is so attentive, loving, He’s amazing. He relieved me from my pain earlier this day. Could anyone else than Him do this to me? Tell me, oh yes tell me. I know I have the most perfect and powerful friend as my God and Savior. He is always there for me, and I keep complaining that I don’t have this or don’t have that and don’t have a close friend these days… how do you think He feels when He hears me say such things? I’m sure He is sad. He gave me life, He gave me love, He gave me strenght, He gave me faith, He gave me hope, He gave me all His attention and His help and support, He gave me everything, and then he hears me complain? Oh my, I am so sorry God, I am so sorry.

I feel so horrible and selfish. Why can’t I give Him back all this love? Why can’t I understand His powerful majesty every second of my life, why do I complain, why do I only hope to get things I want? Why can’t I be giving in return, instead of complaining? Give Him a little bit of love, of attention, of respect? How can I do that? I feel so weak, I have no strenght, He is everything that keeps me alive, oh almighty Savior, how can I tell you how much I love you.

Please help me love you as much as you do for me. You are my everything.

I trust you, just take my life Lord ! All for your glory!

Romains 15:13
May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.

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