Two days ago, on July 17, we — Jeremie and I — celebrated our first wedding anniversary.
On July 17, 2010, my life was turned upside down (in a very good way). New husband, new home, new town, new church, new friends, new job, new school, new neighborhood, new hobbies, new commitments, new opportunities, new experiences, same God. He is my landmark. By the grace of God, I have changed and matured so much in the last years, but He remains the same.

Psalm 31.3
For You are my rock and my fortress; For Your name’s sake You will lead me and guide me.

Psalm 62.2
He only is my rock and my salvation, My stronghold; I shall not be greatly shaken.

Hebrews 13.8
Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever.

Nowadays in North America, people have so many needs. The list is neverending. Need of respect, need of freedom, need of opinion, need of independance, need of love, need of money, need of scholarship, need of a career, need of comfort, need of a house, need of cars, need of technology, need of clothes, need of a spa, need of a trip in the South during winter, need of beauty, need of selected friendships, need of being better and having more than the neighboors, need of more, need of more. What for?  To reach happiness? We sinners are giving ourselves a huge deal package of useless burdens.

To the unbelievers’ eyes, I have all the reasons to be happy. I have good parents, awesome brothers and sister, a cozy home, my studies are going pretty well, I’m heading for university next year, I already have a great job, I have good friends, I’m a fair-enough pretty woman, I’m engaged to an handsome man (inside and out) and getting married next summer. Wow, happiness is at the doorstep! No. A satisfied humanbeing, have you ever heard of something like that ? In fact, I’d see myself far happier with a car, with a couple hundreds thousands dollars added in my saving account, with time to travel around the globe, a better health, longer hair, no more acne, a bigger wardrobe, it’s NEVERENDING. Even the love of my fiance could never replace God’s love towards me ! I need God more than anything I could find in this world. Then what He is giving me are blessings and directions for His plan in my life !

I realized it last month. I realized I had to stop, breathe and let go. Let go the needs, let go the burdens, let go the worries, let go. Let it all go. The only way to feel and to be satisfied is in letting all go and giving Jesus the place that belongs to Him, that means ALL the place, all your heart, all your life.
Taking such a decision is huge. We usually don’t realize how much of a great place our personnal needs are taking in our hearts and minds. We, sinners, tend to want to fix and fill everything by ourselves, it is like trying to fix a balloon with a hammer, nails and wood sticks or like filling a sieve. Material as well as emotional needs are to be answered fully by God only.

I have to give back my burdens to God every day, otherwise I would blind myself from the holy tasks prepared in advance for me.

I have an important announcement to make.

To every new born christian who seeks God’s will in their life and who has trouble in making decisions, I’m about to tell you something huge!!

Are you trusting the Lord completely for every aspect of your life and have you already put down your life at His feet (really sincerely, with no exceptions, no hypocrisy)?

If the answer is yes, well you have the astounding opportunity to have NO MORE problems with decisions making.

Does that sound huge to you? No more problems with decisions making? If you would have told me that a year ago I would have stared at you desperately, hoping for this to be a real possibility for me. But hey, decisions about studies, career, finding the one, mission trips, summer vacations, (it goes on and on, I mean… ALL DECISIONS) are very touchy, hard, stressful, worrying, etc! But… are they.. really ?

No

Keep your trust in the Lord and go straight forward, why would you hesitate? You have an almighty God in control of your life! He has a plan for you and if you let Him the exclusivity in every details of your life, He will be there to guide you in all the decisions you are making. He is there to catch you when you fall and place you back on the right path.

For so long I used to wait (soooo long) before making a decision. I had to feel a unshakable peace about the decision I was making, otherwise it wasn’t God’s will (it’s what I was thinking), but today I realise it wasn’t right.
Try something and pray. This is the advice I am giving you. If obstacles are stopping you and doors are closing or if blessings keep popping, if God speaks to your heart, if the people around you agree or disagree, then peace or doubt will take place in your heart, it will re-enforce your decision or show you if it is wrong.

Trust in the Lord, seek Him, and be filled by His powerful love. (oh it is so good to be a child of God!)

Proverbs 16:33
The lot is cast into the lap,
       but its every decision is from the LORD.

Proverbs 3:26
for the LORD will be your confidence
       and will keep your foot from being snared.

Hebrews 11:1
Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.

1 John 5:13-15
I write these things to you who believe in the name of the Son of God so that you may know that you have eternal life. This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us. And if we know that he hears us—whatever we ask—we know that we have what we asked of him.

Job 22:27-29
You will pray to him, and he will hear you,
       and you will fulfill your vows.
What you decide on will be done,
       and light will shine on your ways.
When men are brought low and you say, ‘Lift them up!’
       then he will save the downcast.

John 8:16
But if I do judge, my decisions are right, because I am not alone. I stand with the Father, who sent me.

In the last 4 months, I’ve learned a lot about God, myself, prayer, and relationships.

I first want to thank God for His infinite patience and love towards me. He is my everything, my rock, the only reason I’m here.
My deepest desire is to live every second of my life for and by Him, to be filled with the Holy Spirit for every breath I take. This desire is so strong in me, I wish nothing could take me away from that, but I’m a sinner, Satan is rushing to disturb my life. He can’t pull me away, but he can fill my time with all sorts of useless things!! He can also place doubts into my mind, strugglings, worries, dark toughts, lusts, but nothing will separate me from the love of my almighty Savior!

Romans 8.38-39
For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Prayer, with a little faith in a powerful God, is incredible. But if God is in control of everything, why do we have to pray? Doesn’t He know all the needs and all the problems of the world, why should we ask Him for anything? Because we are part of His plan. He planned for us to pray! That answer popped out as I was asking all these questions to myself, and it was enough to persuate me that prayer is important, more than we can imagine. Even Jesus-Christ (God himself!!), prayed (a lot!!) during His journey on earth !! He commands us to pray. It is also very important for keeping a healthy relationship with God.
Prayer is so important that we should constantly be doing so.

1 Thessalonians 5:17 (King James Version)
Pray without ceasing.
1 Thessalonians 5:17 (New International Version)
Pray continually.

Que Dieu soit loué pour sa fidélité et son amour ! Je ne comprend toujours pas pourquoi Il a permit qu’une telle bénédiction entre dans ma vie. Je le remercie encore et encore, et je veux à chaque jour et à chaque instant être en sa présence pour savourer ce plan parfait et merveilleux qu’Il a pour moi.

A lot of things is changing or moving on in my life, maybe it’s less concrete than I think it is, but it makes me want to be so much nearer to God. I need him more than ever, because feeling comfortable where I am is a door wide-open to desiring to run my life by myself, and if I’d do that, ew, it could get really bad.

1 Corinthians 10.12
So, if you think you are standing firm, be careful that you don’t fall!

I shall not think it is my own strenght, because it is not. When I am strong I must thank God and when I am weak I must thank God . I must thank God in everything, because I gave Him my life and he is in control. What am I without Him? He is my everything.

2 Corinthians 12:10
That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

Apprends-moi.
Prends-moi.
Utilises-moi.

Que je ne vive plus pour ce monde, mais que je vive pour toi, par toi.
Que tout disparaisse de mon coeur pourqu’il ne reste que toi mon Dieu, pour que toute la place te revienne!

Que sont des paroles? Je veux plus que des paroles à ton intention, je veux être sincère jusqu’en action! Que mon coeur, que ma vie soit à toi! Pas seulement ma tête.

Prend mon coeur! Prend mon âme! Je te donne tout! Prend ma vie, me voici! Je te donne tout! Mon coeur est à toi, tout à toi!

Je veux vivre pour toi seulement! Pitié! Arrache toutes les épines qui m’arrêtent! Je te le demande! Et même si ça fait mal, je m’en fou!

C’est vivre pour toi que je veux!

Je ne veux plus jamais gaspiller ma vie pour les choses du monde, les choses qui durent un temps seulement. Je veux vivre pour les choses qui durent éternellement!

Montres-moi ta volonté en toute chose!

Manifeste-toi, Éternel des armées!

1 I waited patiently for the LORD;
And He inclined to me,
And heard my cry.
2 He also brought me up out of a horrible pit,
Out of the miry clay,
And set my feet upon a rock,
And established my steps.
3 He has put a new song in my mouth—
Praise to our God;
Many will see it and fear,
And will trust in the LORD.
4 Blessed is that man who makes the LORD his trust,
And does not respect the proud, nor such as turn aside to lies.
5 Many, O LORD my God, are Your wonderful works
Which You have done;
And Your thoughts toward us
Cannot be recounted to You in order;
If I would declare and speak of them,
They are more than can be numbered. [...]
9 I have proclaimed the good news of righteousness
In the great assembly;
Indeed, I do not restrain my lips,
O LORD, You Yourself know.

1 Corinthians 10: 23, 24

23 All things are lawful for me, but not all things are helpful; all things are lawful for me, but not all things edify. 24 Let no one seek his own, but each one the other’s well-being.

I’ve always had an hard time at job because of my single status. They (co-workers) all try to match you with someone, and they seem to believe that you’re are not a normal citizen until you are taken. I guess they believe they’re making a good action for you, but it is so wrong. So wrong! What’s the hurry? Why would they feel pityful for someone single? It doesn’t mean you’re a no-life lonely geek! Where are the values in this world?

When I will be dating someone, I’ll have to have God’s peace about it. When I will be dating someone, it’s because I’ll have the conviction that he might be the one God wants for me to marry.

I am never alone. The only one I need is God, and He is always there with me and for me. He’s the best best friend you can ever have.

Psalm 46:7 The LORD of hosts is with us;
The God of Jacob is our refuge.

Psalm 62:8 Trust in Him at all times, you people;
Pour out your heart before Him;
God is a refuge for us.

Isaiah 8:10c For God is with us.

Romans 8:17 And if children, then heirs—heirs of God and joint heirs with Christ, if indeed we suffer with Him, that we may also be glorified together.

2 Corinthians 1:12 For our boasting is this: the testimony of our conscience that we conducted ourselves in the world in simplicity and godly sincerity, not with fleshly wisdom but by the grace of God, and more abundantly toward you.

Ephesians 3:12 in whom we have boldness and access with confidence through faith in Him.